Tuesday, 10 March 2015
It's all a matter of faith - food
My eating healthy journey is going well. I am not perfect and still occasionally eating things I should not. Every time I make a good choice it is easier to make the good choice next time, so I am feeling energised. My weight is still not going down the way I want it to, but I keep reminding myself that the goal is obeying God not losing weight. This frees me to rejoice in the progress regardless of how much I weigh. I found a scripture when I was doing the Bible study Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst that has really helped me get to the core of my eating problem. It is Psalm 78: 21-22: " Therefore, when the Lord heard, He was full of wrath; a fire was kindled against Jacob, His anger mounted up against Israel, Because in God they believed not [they relied not on Him, they adhered not to Him] and they trusted not in His salvation (His power to save). This verse is referring to when the Israelites were in the desert and they wanted food. Even though God had miraculously provided water in the desert they did not believe He could give them food too. I think I have the same attitude as the Israelites. I don't trust God with my food and that is the core of my problem. I want what I want, and I don't want to give the eating choices I make to God. I don't trust him that He has the power to save me from the cravings that cause me to eat things that make me sick and fat. I want to keep eating the things that are bad for me, that God has called me to give up. I am afraid of losing the tiny bit of happiness I get from eating those bad things. But God is the source of my joy and I can trust Him to replace the happiness of sin with a more lasting joy that is not tainted. God does have the power to save me from my cravings. I have seen that when I trust Him and rely on God, He can enable me to eat the healthy things instead of the junk. It still hurts a bit to say no to 5 cupcakes but it is exhilarating to push through that pain and find the strength to make the healthy choice. God is faithful and able and He is giving me the strength to win more battles in this food war than I lose.